1 down, 1 more to go.

Been up since 9am yesterday and went to uni around 3pm. Stayed at uni until 8am and got home around 9am today lol.

Jesc stayed over last night as well. Hopefully she took some cold medicines though since she was sniffing a lot yesterday o.O

Joe's getting back to Hawaii. yay! <3

Anyhow, 18 more days to go :D





 

Just 3-4 more weeks till I get back to Malaysia.
And 1 week + for Joe to get back to Hawaii.

Still got 3 more assignments due within this 2 weeks. Hopefully I'll be able to do well for 1 of my subjects. Still feeling a lil worried about it at the moment.

Was at Jesc's house almost the whole day today and took some pictures of Haki and Merede while she was chatting with Yuki online. Enjoy!







































Haki took the last picture as a memory for both of them lol.

"You are like a talking radio that I can't turn off."



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A very familiar tag line from a movie Just Like Heaven. I had been told by someone by the same tagline. Not that I'm not aware that I talk too much but is that a bad thing?


Should learn how to keep my mouth shut for a while.





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Today's a public holiday so there isn't any class and all. Was planning to finish up most of my essay but I haven't even touch it from morning until now lol XD I really have to get on it soon even though I kinda like got side track today.

Was browsing through Sen's site (http://senimation.blogspot.com/)  and then I just thought, maybe I should start making my own art blog as well. It works as a portfolio online at the same time so I was creating the blog and recollecting all my old art works from my hard drive and deviantart. Most of my works are actually back at home so I don't think I could put up some of them until I get back to Malaysia. Anyhow, I've created my blog so you can have a look at it here.

For now the artworks that I put on the blog are just my old works that you can check out on my deviantart. I'm planning to just put up most of my old art work first then slowly move on to my recent works. Not really sure how it's gonna be like but I'm working on it.

Just got home and now I'm sort of like relaxing a bit before I start off with my assignments. I still haven't really come up with a good gag but I guess better sketch something than nothing at all. Besides like what they say, once you start sketching then it's like you're starting your engine to produce more ideas. Okay, nobody said that. I come out on my own lol. Anyways before coming back home earlier, I went to the city after class to get a refund from the jacket that I bought from Jay Jays about 2 weeks ago, send a letter to Joe and went to the Aus Ed office.

Last Friday I actually attended a seminar about working in Australia for international students. They just kinda like talked about how Australian does things here and how to find a job. Stuff like that. But after all those, they talked about getting a temporary working visa or a PR. The requirements were:


- you have to study in Australia for 2 years
- you have to be a full time student taking 40 credit points per semester.
- you have to stay here in Australia for 3 years and work for 1 year within that 3 years (full time) <-- this is for PR.

Out of all the requirements, I had not fulfill the 40 credit points per semester so I wanted to ask someone who knows about immigrations about it. Went to Aus Ed and talked to one of the lady in charge. She mentioned that according to my 120 credit points, I am no qualified to get a PR or even work in Australia. No matter how long I study here, with 120 credit points it won't make a difference. The only option that's left for me if I do want to work here and get a PR is to take another course such as Masters (for 1 year). With that I could fulfill the credit points part and apply for PR.

I don't think I would like to study longer since my family has been having problems with finance especially with 2 daughters studying at uni now...and 1 of their daughter is at overseas (me lol). I need to get back to work and help support my family especially for my sister's part. I really do hope I get to work here since I heard that the pay here is better than back in Malaysia and I also want to gain experience working overseas. I just send an email to my dad about it. Not sure what he would think about it but let's see what he says.

Yesterday went back home from uni after meeting up with Jesc and Kelsie for lunch. There are some things going on around but I rather not say it here. But anyways class was alright and I had to think of some gag story for my class. It shouldn't have a dialogue but mostly just effects. Can have a bit of music I guess but just to be on the safe side, just sound effects. Besides that class, I just realize that I have to look for a 2min video for Animation Sound Design which only has sound effects as well. Had to start looking for what kind of video I like to write about for my essay, which also includes another essay which I have to write for Reading the Visual Class. All are due on week 4 but I guess it's best to get an early start on things.

Anyways I got a phone call from Joe yesterday while I was on the way home. Was really happy hearing his voice but the reception was really bad though. I couldn't catch certain words that he was saying and he couldn't hear mine either. Just manage to talk a bit before I had to hang up since I had to get out of the bus at the mall (full of ppl/students that time so it'll be even harder to hear him on the phone). Even though we didn't talk much or long somehow I felt like I could just skip all the way home if I want to XD. Just feeling a lil happy just hearing his voice and talking to him =X

This is totally random but Ginger (my neighbour's orange cat, you can see its' pic on my facebook) is staying over for the next 3 months since the owner is going to be away on a trip to Europe during that time. So yea, for the past 2 days Ginger has been coming into my room and jumping on my bed staring at me hoping I would pat him for a few mins...or hours o_O Every pet I gave doesn't seem enough for him haha. But I don't mind though, he's too cute XD ...even though he's old. I heard that he's actually a 12 year old cat o_O

It's only 5:15pm and it's already getting dark. Tomorrow I need to wake up early again (even though I've got no class) to go for some seminar at Nathan Campus. Hope I get to learn something from it and maybe I could use whatever I learnt in the future. Oh right, there's a screening for Jesc and Kelsie's final project as well. Looking forward to that even though I had no idea how to get there D:"

Had a tough time trying to sleep last night since my head was really painful and a block nose isn't helping much either. I'm still having a block nose now and I was thinking of getting out of the house to buy somemore throat reliever candies but I don't have the energy to even walk out right now x.x" Besides my nose isn't helping much either and I'm having a tough time trying to breath through my mouth.

Still got 6 more panadol tablet. Hopefully once I'm done with it the flu will go off. I don't really like getting sick x.x" 

Feeling slightly better today. Last night before I went to bed I was having this massive headache but it's gone now which is good.
Almost forgot that today I'm suppose to enrol into my new semester course. As usual, I went straight to facebook and there I saw my housemate's status update saying that she manage to enrol into her course without any trouble. 

Logged into my uni's website and enrolled into 3 courses. At first I couldn't enrol into one of the courses which was Reading the Visual but later on after an hour there were some open slots so I quickly enrol and got in. At least I don't have to worry about my classes now, all I have to think now is how to pay my fees. Msged Jessie on MSN this morning and she told me that her Master's application wasn't in according to the uni. She was worried about it and hopes to go to uni tomorrow to ask them though. From what I've heard, Kelsie got accepted into Masters. Congrats Kelsie! I do hope Jessie gets accepted as well. I might go to uni tomorrow as well to check about my results. I was planning to do so yesterday but as I've mentioned in my previous entry, I was sick.

But eitherway, I do hope Jessie gets accepted into Masters as well.

Not exactly sure what to do today. Yesterday i msged Wayne to send the concept design for his final project to my email since I won't be seeing him. However I hadn't receive anything from him until today. Honestly speaking I'm kinda relieve since I'm feeling kinda lazy at the moment haha. I'm evil lol. But hopefully if I'm feeling much better tomorrow I'll go check with him on the concept design as well. I guess I'm not much of a help lol.

Recently I've been thinking of stories in my mind that I might like to use in the future. Been trying to think of better ways to improve each of them though. Not sure if they're much of a use but I guess I better type them out before I forget. Just a reminder to myself. However if you feel like there's some room for improvement and willing to share some ideas, do feel free to leave a comment on my entry lol.



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First story:

It all started out with an envelope with a paper inside saying "Could we be friends?"

During that time, pen palling was considered the in-thing for most teenage girls. However their pen pal distance was limited within the country. Our main character (A) was kinda like the loner or nerd in the class and she decided that she would like to have a penpal different than all her classmates. One day while browsing through the cartoon section of the newspaper, she found a newly made section here people from all over the world posted their biography to make new friends. She browse through the names and decided to send a letter to someone from the US.

A reply came back to her within 2 weeks with a note at the end of the letter saying  "Let's be friends  - Sincerely (B)"
The years went by fast however A and B where still keeping in touch with each other. One day B send a mail to A saying that he had join the army and sending letters would be tough for both of them. A was unhappy hearing the news however she agreed to support B in whatever he plans to do. 

It has been 2 years since they kept in touch with each other and B has been deployed to Afghanistan. Their letter sending was soon slowly fading away as their letter receiving time was getting longer. A realize her feelings for B has grown and she had not felt this way before. It took her courage and a long time to send a letter asking him how does he feel about her.
Weeks turns into Months yet there was still no reply from B. A had slowly move on to focusing on her career and hadn't realize that B hasn't been sending any letters to her for almost a month +. It was one unexpected day when she received a call from a girl who claims to be B's elder sister.

2 days since A received the news from B's sister and she has flown all the way to U.S. Before she knew it she was standing outside the church together with B's family. She walked into the church only to be greeted be unknown faces. She moves out of the crowd and finally saw him.  B layed down peacefully surrounded by flowers inside a nicely made coffin. A bend down to touch his hand for the first time and tears starts to roll down her face. B's hand was cold but somehow he seems to be sleeping peacefully wearing his best suit. 

Before she knew it, she was standing by the cemetery watching them bury B's body 7 feet below her. It was when everyone slowly left the cemetery when B's sister pats her shoulder and said that there was something that B wanted to give A.

It was an envelope covered with dirt however she could recognize B's handwriting addressed to her. She opened the envelope and tears began to roll down again as she read the torn paper with the msg:

I had always loved you.

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Okay I had written a complete story out of this one somewhere online. I'm embarassed to show it here since my grammar and english words are limited XD However that's the basic idea. I was thinking of changing more of it though. Do you have any idea you like to input here as well please feel free to comment :P

Next...



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Second Story:

It was raining on the most dreadful day of his life. It was the last straw. God has taken everything away from me ever since the day I was born and he was fed up with it. First it was my father, later my mother and now the person who I could considered part of myself, my wife. I stood by my wife's tombstone and looked down at it.

(details of his wife's name and death day was written on it)

My feelings could not be describe in words and the pain within my heart hurts more than ever. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I fell to the grown and hits it with my bare hands. Blood starts dripping down the side of my palm but it was nothing compared to how I felt.

Before I knew it I was walking slowly back to his apartment. Feeling like a man being possessed, I enter my room, took off my wet coat and open the box next to the piano by the window. It was dusty but as I open the box, there laid a great masterpiece of work. A hollow wooden box that he has not touch in ages. I stroke the tip of the strings attached to it, a soft yet gentle sound came from it.

"It has been a long time..." I whispered as he picked up the violin gently. It looks as if it's brand new however only he knew the violin better than anyone else.

i placed the violin gently on MY left shoulder, picked up the bow and started playing Debussy - Sonata. A lonely violin sound echo throughout the room. It was her favourite song and we used to play it over the piano most of the time. I was her melody and she was my support. We both need each other to make life into this music. As I continue fiddling with my violin, suddenly I hear the piano.

I opened my eyes to see an image of her sitting down playing the supporting part. Tears began to roll down from my eyes as I continue playing. The music rang into my ears was beautiful. 

As I slowly move closer to my wife ghostly figure, suddenly a gust of blew and opened the window next to the piano. As slowly and beautiful as the music, I saw her floating around me and touched my face. It was cold but at the same time familiar. She looked at me and smiled as she moves away from me.

"No..." I thought to myself. I quickly ran towards her. I'm not going to let you go this time, please come back!
As I reached out my hand to grab hers, I suddenly find myself floating in the air. It felt good at that moment until I suddenly felt something pierce through my heart. I opened my eyes again and found myself hanging by the sharp fence outside my apartment. I could feel blood rushing up to my throat as I cough them out. It was cold, and the rain kept pouring down on me. As I laid there, I  took a deep breath and smile to I see my wife's face closer to me now....



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Lol I just realize I have 2 depressing story in my mind. For the 2nd story, I was thinking of ending it with his son holding on to him so he won't fall out the window or something like that. It was then he realize not everything was lost and hugged his son.

Not sure which is a better ending but hmm....anyways there are a few more but haven't really got an idea how to start of finish it. I'll just leave these 2 ideas here for now.

Okay I kinda neglected my blogs on livejournal and also on xanga. I somehow find that there's a lot of changes going on in xanga that I don't even recognize it anymore. Come to think about it, why isn't livejournal as updated as xanga? Perhaps they think it's at it's best so they're not gonna change it anymore? Or maybe they did...just that I don't know where lolz.

Was feeling a lil sick since yesterday. I think it's a flu. The good news is that I don't have any fever. The bad news is that it's not stopping. I don't really like it when I get a flu and all. First you start sneezing a lot, then it starts dripping and later on before you knew it, you get a sore throat. Normally after that I get a fever but so far none. I guess it's proven that panadol tablets works well if you take them when you're at the beginning stage of getting sick. However I needed sleep to stop it, which I'm finding a hard time doing so at the moment. Speaking of flu, there's something that's been bothering me. I was hoping that I wasn't catching h1n1 or swine flu now though. I've looked up online to see what were the symptoms of getting it and so far they describe it as normal flu. 

Emergency Warning Signs (h1n1)

If you become ill and experience any of the following warning signs, seek emergency medical care.

In children, emergency warning signs that need urgent medical attention include:

• Fast breathing or trouble breathing
• Bluish or gray skin color
• Not drinking enough fluids
• Severe or persistent vomiting
• Not waking up or not interacting
• Being so irritable that the child does not want to be held
• Flu-like symptoms improve but then return with fever and worse cough

In adults, emergency warning signs that need urgent medical attention include:

• Difficulty breathing or shortness of breath
• Pain or pressure in the chest or abdomen
• Sudden dizziness
• Confusion
• Severe or persistent vomiting
• Flu-like symptoms improve but then return with fever and worse cough

The good thing was I don't have any of this symptoms. However recently I realize that my heart's been beating furiously often especially during the time I'm going to bed. I hadn't been playing any games / watching horror movies that would make me feel nervous or some sort but it feels that way whenever I breath. Does that include under the symptoms of difficulty breathing or shortness of breath? It doesn't sound like it but I guess I'll just ignore that. Even now I could feel my heart beating hard for no reason. Maybe it's because I haven't been getting enough exercise these few days. Should start walking more haha.

Borrowed about 5 books from the library yesterday and finished reading 1 already. Now reading a book called The Matchbreaker by Chris Manby.Honestly speaking the beginning story of it isn't really catchy but what I like about the book is the choice of words they use to describe something different. I just started reading that though. Before this I wasn't really much into books as I used to back at secondary school. However I started borrowing 2 books written by Sinead Moriarty last Thursday and I find them superly amusing and I really enjoyed it. If you're wondering who she is, she was the writter who wrote Princess Diary. And she's an Irish! I didn't expect that at all and browsing through her biography and pictures, I'll have to say she's a great writer with great sense of humour and wonderful based on looks too haha. I'm planning to go hunt 2 books that she wrote in the library when I'm feeling well. The Baby Trail and From Here to Maternity are the books that I'm looking forward to. 

But anyways I had been keeping in touch with Joe through emails and sometimes msges left for each other on our facebook. Joe's emails tend to be short and simple (which I understood why since it's mostly P&C) and he's always talking about his seniors, jobs, heavy gears which hurt him and stuff like that. It just made me worried about him and I'm planning to send something that could help him with his backache. I know...by the time I send this off to Afghanistan he'll probably got over with it but at least it's something for him just in case such situation happens again lol. Besides all those, we also talked about Joe's visiting. We've been trying to plan this out since last year but due to my family flying over to Sarawak last Christmas, it's considered like...MISSION ATTEMPT FAILED NO.01.

So our 2nd attempt would be end of this year on December. It's not entirely confirmed when he would be coming though because of his situation and mine right now. Before this Joe asked me to visit him back at U.S. during Christmas. This was because he wanted to spend some time with his family (it's almost 1/2 a year since they seen each other and his family miss him dearly) and also at the same time spend time with me as well. I thought it was a great idea however, been brought up in a protective family (+ I am a girl whom my parents think that I'm not mature enough compared to my sister) I know it's going to be tough asking them.

End of last year I've told my dad about my relationship with Joe. My dad wasn't really happy about it but he said the choice was mine to make cause now the world has change so long distance relationship might work. I was much more confident telling my dad about Joe at first cause somehow it feels like my dad was closer to me and he won't just suddenly burst out and say NO straight away. However for my mum, I know she was going to say no to me directly that's why it took me a longer time to tell her. I told her a few months back when I called home and she was saying that it's okay for me to play around but don't get too serious. She was hoping that I could find someone better in Australia haha. In fact, I had an idea that she wants me to marry a white man. I have to say honestly, a chinese + white = cute mix kids. I have one of my auntie who was my dad's long lost cousin who married a white guy from the U.S. Their kids, Nathan and Ean...how could I say...they're super adorable! Come to think about it, I haven't seen them in ages...

*cough* But anyways, back to the plan between me and Joe, we talked about it and realize that there are a lot of things we have to fix and get ready before we could even jump on the plane and fly. First off and most importantly was the visa. Both of us haven't thought about it or how long it was going to take just to get the visa done. I wouldn't mind doing so however I came to realize that I have to do mine and go through some interviews back in Malaysia. I can't really do that in Australia so Joe propose that he would try to get the visa thingy done as he had never done any visa before. In fact when I asked his elder sister (who's the same age as me), looks like they've never really travelled anywhere overseas that requires a visa. Joe said he would try to ask his senior to help him out on the visa part however he has been really busy and tired almost all the time so it was really tough for him *feels guilty*

Was thinking of going back to Malaysia end of the year instead of staying back in Australia during December. Joe said he didnt' mind as long it's english orient? Well being brought up in a country where you've only spoke english in your entire life and barely know any viet to save your life (like me with my chinese lol!) he was a lil worried about that. But I don't think that's much of a problem to be worrying about to begin with. If he does come to Malaysia, the first thing I wanna do is to intro him to the Rashingis. Perhaps will talk to my dad when it's confirm when he's coming lol. I think Joe and my dad might click since they're both interested with technical stuff related to computers. The only thing my dad didn't really like the idea about Joe was the army related stuff. And my dad's also worried about me.

Started sneezing again just now. And I've been eating non stop since early this morning. My tummy size could beat santa clause's tummy any time. It's getting big, really....okay not THAT big but still big. I should really start walking more often and stop getting chocolate deprive lol.

Mmmm i realized i changed a lot especially after re-reading my old entries. I don't sound the way I am now that's for sure.  Anywayz....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESC~~~~~ <3333

Haha...Now I know the reason why I've been getting so many guys messages in friendster....The guys are chasing after the person in the pic that I've put up on friendster...XD Haha..!If only they could have know that the pic of the 'cute girl' is actually a guy...!XD Found out the truth when I receive a message saying that i was cute in the pic...Haha...!Hyde-sama...looks like people get confused when they're looking at your pic...^^;;

Hehe...sorry....I've been laughing when I was reading all the messages I've got from this few people...XD


~~shirua

I don't know why but I was crying for a while....Was it because I felt trapped...? I felt left out...?I felt lonely...?

I don't know why these tears keep falling down....I feel like crying again...but I don't want to....I don't want my family to know about it...I don't want them to see me like this...

Why...?Why do these tears keep falling down...?

Why....?



~~shirua

Lately I felt really angry about myself...I felt like I'm now totally a different person...Not the person that I use to be-->The type that don't care about what happens to the world and just end up in your own world.....Now it seems like people had pulled me out of that world and I'm facing reality....

Sometimes I wish I could just go back to that other world....

There are good things and bad things about this world....Friends....New adventure....Excitment...Different atmosphere....Emotion....

In my world...I create any kind of things I like.....Fantasy...Mystic....Dreams...Bu t one thing I have never had....True friends....

I had always thought that I would never find any good friends ever since I've been cheated for how many times in the past....

Lately I noticed that I had been acting weirdly infront of my friends...I had been talking too much even though I had nothing to say and all the things I said are just rubbish...I felt like an idiot...I speak before I think...Whatever I said could have been sensitive and most of them could hurt other people....

That's the worst thing about being too close with your friends cause you might not know what you're going to say when you're with them....

Feeling trapped...

Scared....

Lonely....

Some might be thinking that I'm okay...Some might be thinking that I'm nuts....Some might be thinking that I'm one bad girl...Some might be thinking that I'm too sensitive...Some might be thinking why am I thinking of something like that...?

I'm food for the squirrel....

Not Amanda of course....

I'm going crazy...

Help me....

Should I go back to the other world....?I won't have to worry about anything anymore...I won't have to feel the pain within me...

But one part of me is telling me that I'm going the wrong way....My friends would find me weird...too outcasted...shy like the last time before this...Anyway...I'm afraid to leave all this things behind...I care for my friends...I care for what they have to say...I care for their worries...Why do I care so much about them...?

.....

Maybe it's just that....I don't want to be alone...?

I'm confused....

I want to help my friends but I'm afraid....

I want to help but somewhere inside me says that I shouldn't get involved...

....

I made a decision long ago that I would help them no matter what....The best I can do is just by listening to their problems....Smile...and give a hug...

That's all....

I want to put trust in everyone...My friends....my family....But how many would return the favor...?How many people would trust me...?

.....

Sometimes I wish I was not born in this world...Sometimes I wish that I'm a different person...Sometimes I wonder...why I can't appreciate what god has given to me in this life....Why can't I accept myself...?Why can't some people accept me...?

I'm trying to accept myself for who I am but it's so hard....If I can't accept myself...what else can I do to have others to accept me...?

....

I'm feeling tired right now...I'm lazy....I'm sick....





~~shirua

Decided not to stop writting journals anymore...I can't stand of it...Ever since I stop writting...I began to feel more depressed...Everyday I felt like I've been outcasted and some people might have their own thoughts about me...

I had tried to be who I am...I had tried to be myself infront of everyone...But it seems like there is another part that doesn't really show who I am...This part is develop because of the people around me since from high school and now...Each different personality makes me feel uneasy...Every word I say are weird...Every moventment I make is stupid...Every thing I do is just out of my character....

Being on this side of the world is definitely not my cup of tea...The taste is horrible...I need something different...

Even though whenever I'm with my friends from high school or college...I feel stupid...I feel like I've been looked down by people...I feel really angry...sad...depressed....fear...trapped in their scary eerie eyes....I just wanted to be alone for a while...I feel like crying...I hate it...

Tears....

Why do these tears keep falling down...?

Why can't I just be the type who doesn't care what the world thinks about you....?

Why is it hard to express through words...?

Why is it so hard...?

I want to be accepted....

....

Help me Father.....




~~shirua

This could be my last post online...Dad didn't want me to have one so just to make him happy...I better stop even though I like pouring everything out here..><I won't be posting anything on my other journals as well....Sad...-_- ~~shirua

Today went out with Joey-chan, Jiad Li, Shalini and Kelsie to watch movie in Joey-chan's house....Actually I'm supposed to watch Spiderman 2 movie with John, Terence and Kelsie but because I'm more interested to know how Joey-chan's house looks like..(hehe...^^) so I decided to follow her during Figures Studies...Ask Kelsie to come along cause I don't want her to watch the movie alone with 2 guys....Not safe...><

After following Wei Min to the library to reborrow the book for her, I went off with Joey-chan to Vision Art first then go to her car in Piramid...Talked with Kelsie a lot today about Final Fantasy...I was talking about Squall while she talked about Cloud...X3

Drove to Summit to buy DVDs and VCDs but it looks like they didn't display any of them...Joey-chan said they only display them about 7-8pm...After that...we drove by Joey-chan's house and her dad wasn't there....So Joey-chan drove us to a shop for dinner first(I don't remember what's it called...I only remember 'sri'...><;;;) On the way back to her car after dinner, we saw Joey-chan's father buying Chow Kuey Teow...My first thought when I saw him--->Green Goblin from Spiderman...O_O

While on the way to Joey-chan's house...we saw her mother, maid and Ashley...Joey-chan was like....BABY..!!!XD Ashley was so cute..! She was like waving and giving a blow kiss at everyone...^^ Went into Joey-chan's house and then her dad came back...Actually he doesn't look like the type of person that Joey-chan used to say about him...He seems very friendly and nice...When he saw Ashley...he was like--->:D

Went into Joey-chan's room...It was sort of messy but it's okay for me..^^ There's lots of bookd/manga's on the floor like Doraemon, DragonBall, Ultraman, etc....Her room got so many things...! Even got glow in the dark plastic figure on the wall...! She let us listen to a few of the songs from....err...Seat Belts...?Gomen...I forgot the name again...>< But the music was great...I love the beat of the song...Joey-chan said it's the players for Cowboy Bebop...I want to watch that show...!><

Had to go off at about 9pm...Drop Kelsie at the bus stop before pumping patrol...Had to go back to the bus stop to give Kelsie back her stuff that she had left in Joey-chan's car...^^;;; Joey-chan then later drop me at Piramid...Once I got off the car, I felt like I'm lack of something to carry...Then I remembered about my plastic file with my figures stuff inside...O_O Had to sms Joey-chan about it...><

Met dad at Bumcity...He asked me where had I been and stuff...Told him everything...It seems like he was a bit frustrated...Maybe he had been waiting for me at piramid for a long time...Sometimes I think my dad doesn't want me to hang out a lot...He even sometimes remind me that the main reason I go to college is not for fun or finding Mr. Right Guy but to go there and study...I knew about that but I think he's just worried that I waste all his money that he invest on me for college...

Watched Malaysian Idol just now...My dad was like telling me that I should have join the Malaysian Idol...Somehow when I look at the contestant...I feel like joining in as well...even though I doubt whether I could make it to the top 30 or even make it into Malaysian Idol first..!O_O But when I hear the judges comments on the people...I felt like I've been stab as well even though the comments are not for me...I think that if I get those kind of harsh comments from the judges...I might not sing anymore...My confident is very low...I'm scared...><

*sigh*...I hope I'll be able to finish my Comm Skills work with Wei Min tomorrow...Promised to meet her either at 10am or 12pm....I don't want to do last minute work...Somehow I felt like I'm the one doing most of the work...I did research and thought a bit on the layout design...What Wei Min only did was giving ideas on the layout and how to get the juice out and stuff....Heard from Joey-chan and other people that Wei Min doesn't do most of the work with the reason that she had lots of other things to do...>< I hope it doesn't happen to me...I don't want to lose mark and stuff over this...><



~~shirua

Back to college and now in Computer Graphic class....Today learn how to paint scenery...I just hope I'll be able to paint well...Don't want to have the same results like my still life drawings....>< Went to McD for lunch then come back to college for Computer Graphic class...Looks like I did a poor job on my assignments...but...never mind...*sigh*

Had been doing figures since Sunday, Monday and Tuesday....Stayed back in college on Tuesday and Wednesday to finish up figures and meeting with Wei Min to complete our papaya juice project...Send her the URL for each site yesterday...hope she receive it...^^Yesterday chat with Kevin, Terence2 and Laura....Kevin asked about the sms message I send...Hmm...looks like most people didn't get Beatrice's message...At first when I receive it...I was wondering what's with the "delete this message"...had to scroll down to get what's going on...^^ Chat with Terence2 and talked about tomorrow's FA stuff....He told me his computer got hang because of some virus and he was having problems with it....Told my dad about it and he asked me to give some program to help him out...Forgot to bring it today though...^^;;; After that we began to talk about confident and stuff....When he began to ask me about it...I felt like I was talking to a lawyer like in drama class...>< Laura chat with me later and asked me how many figures I've done...

Been sleeping late lately and I don't really like it...I feel really sleepy the next day and I won't be able to focus...>< But I dont like sleeping in bed as well cause I don't feel comfortable with it....I need new bedsheet....>< Better go off now....


~~shirua

Yay...college's starting soon...!Gotta go college in another 50 minutes...Can't wait to see my friends back...:D...but it's also back to a mountain of assignments...TT_TT

Been kind of angry about myself since last Saturday and sunday...Dad made it worst by giving comments...Yesterday he told me about the fees for bowling which is more than I could expected...O_O He said that I should make full use of the coach...Should ask more question and stuff...Hmmm...Maybe I should do so so that at least it's worth the fees...^^

Yesterday while on the way back from Summit...there was a heavy jam since it was raining heavily just now...Had been stuck in the jam for quite sometime until a man came out and clear the traffic...At first me and my dad thought it was a traffic police...The road began to clear and then we saw the guy who clear the traffic went back into his friend's car....

Dad:"So the main reason he got down from the car to clear the traffic was because he wants to get out of the jam himself first..!"

Me:*sweatdrop*

Right after the guy left...the jam start again and this time...2 guys came down to the rescue...Same reason like the first guy cause I saw them going back into their car...^^;;;

When my dad was driving infront of Summit...I saw a car stop on the left hand side of the road...It looks kinda of familiar so I peek my head from behind...I thought I saw Joey-chan..!O_O What is she doing there all alone..? Before I can do anything, my dad has drove to the LDP way...>_< Went back home and then go out for dinner at SS2...The air was cold and it reminds me of Cameron Highlands right after the rain...^^

Finish my first potrait and started a bit on my second yesterday night...I wonder if I can finish 7 potraits,1 spiderman figure, 5 figures (sports), tangram picture and painting(harmony) and sketchbook...>_< I'm dead....X_X



~~shirua